Though I know only maybe 1 or 2 people read this journal I feel I should post this everywhere just to say I did all I could do.  I am part of a huge collaboration between 60 artists in one anime art book called "Anime Angels".  The kick starter page has been up a few days and though we already went over $1,000 any additional help or support for the artists is great.  So please pledge to get your own copy, or send it around to others.

http://www.kickstarter.com/projects/1471091733/anime-angels-artbook

So PJJ Chats have been down for almost 2 days now.  Though I havnt been rping hardly anything I still used them as a way to communicate.  Sure there is AIM but that is pretty much dead for me. I did contact a few people but only one person sent me a IM because of my "I hope the chats comes back after work" type status. It kinda brings into perspective how out of touch I still am with people, among other things that have happened today. 
Oh well back to Skyrim :)

I found a doujin market on Livejournal and am looking into it.  I dont plan to buy any mind you I plan to sell.  I have a lot of doujin saved up and I could use a little extra money. now I just have to start taking pictures and look over the rules on posting.  I'm not really sure on prices so I'll have to research that too.

btw Christmas was fantastic.

I really am a terribly selfish person.  I come back from trips expecting hellos and maybe only get get one after I leave making an exit post.

This past weekend I went to a conference called CTN animation Expo with a guest speaker talking about you know the how to get a job stuff or make your work better.  He mentioned stop watching TV, or playing video games, or hanging out with friends.  Basically I should devote myself completely to work.  At the time I was thinking “But my rping”.  Yet I come back and no one even gives a hello and it made me think that the speaker might have been right.  Theres nothing for me in rping, no one would care if I vanished from the chats.  Honestly it has put me more in the mood to quit and go work on art.  Even talking about this to a friend didn’t see to get any reaction but “ok” one worded responses.

Oh the up side the conference was amazing.  I got to see my old classmates and saw so much talent.  I met a lot of people and got business cards.

So my big cosplay next summer is going to be Lina Inverse from Slayers Next. I plan to go on a diet and start working out.  Because of that I haven’t started on the costume yet because… I just won’t have the will power to keep on it with thanksgiving and Christmas around the corner.  As soon as Christmas is over watch out!  My friend wants to go as Amelia.  The only real probably I see is I might have to bind my chest a bit.  I don’t believe Line is truly a “washboard” as so many people like to make fun of her in the show, but I think I will defiantly have to do something to achieve that cute Lina look.

I plan to make MOST of the costume myself.  However I will probably commission someone to make me the shoulder plates.   I have never made armor and with so many other things to do I don’t plan to have enough time to experiment.

I leave you with this cover of the first Slayers Opening.  Not half bad and only get some more excited to do this cosplay.

Last night was a good night.  I got to rp with an old friend I haven’t seen in awhile.  Even if we just got to talk that would have been nice but the chance to rp was also good.  This just strengthen my feelings on old rps that I miss.

I am still looking for a new place.  I’m terrible at thinking up new characters and I seem to be lazy when it comes to actually registering.  I think I’m just nervous about if a new chat would accept me since the last time I tried it didn’t work out so well.  Also whenever I see rules that when I register I have to fill to this huge character sheet I get discouraged.  I honestly don’t think about things like weight or height or mathematically equations to determine there power and states. 

I’d also like to make a shout out to a friend that IM’d me last night after finding my LJ.  I guess they read that post I made about friendship and came to talk to me.  Though they were not part of the subject in question I find it sweet that they wanted to check up on me. So thank you friend.

So I bought a lot of books this weekend…on top of my WoW play, console gaming, portfolio prep, and art projects. Yeah I have way too much stuff to do, but thought I might tell you about them anyways.

The first is Shakugan no Shana X or volume 10.  I THINK this is the final manga.  It's hard to tell because the english ones havnt been out sense 2007 and I think they only got to volume 4 or 5.  But the last page says "Fin" so I'm going to assume it's the last book.  I really wish they would translate more of the light novels.  If they are worried about printing prices maybe look to e-readers.  This way the companies wont have to worry about losing money from a small fan base.  Shana is one of my favorite animes though.







Shakugan no Shana x Eternal Song 3.  This is the same series but a prelude to the Shana we know.  This story takes place in the time line of the previous burning eyed hunter. Again I don’t read Japanese but I'm fascinated by the previous story line so I always pick this comic up.
For all I know this will never be printed in English.  The fight scenes are good enough and I can basically tell what is going on even if I cant read it.







Spice and wolf volume 4 the light novel, NOT the manga.  I honestly haven’t been reading ANY of the spice and wolf novels.  I’ve read bad reviews on his writing style that only gets better over time with the story so I’ve waited.  Also the books are supposedly following the anime to a T so I wanted to wait till the novels got to the point where the anime stop.  I think 4 is one of those stories at least we do not get to see in the show.  I hope it turns out good but I have other books I’m trying to get through first.









Ok I didn’t even know this existed, let allow coming out.  I was sitting around at work with not much to do when I noticed a blog update and an essay from the writer about his knew book.  On my first break of the day I went to our computers to see when the book was coming out.  It turns out it had come out that very same day, Nov 1^st, my birthday!  I quickly asked my managers if we got it in and bought it on my break. A little happy birthday to me.  I love this book so far.  The witty jokes keep making me smile.  This book is the 4^th and final installment to the wicked years series.  Wicked is honestly on my top 3 list of books alongside Mists of Avalon and Peter Pan. I plan to finish this before I start on spice and wolf.

If anyone has taken a look at my character storage site you’ll see a huge list of chars.  About 80% of them are probably un-known because I made them for people that I no longer play with, or their characters just didn’t seem to pan out to well. 

I miss the old days where I had very few chars and tons of rp.  Case in point my main char Oniko.  I don’t think I can even call her my main anymore as Selowen the elf gets used so much more.  The past few weeks I have been racking my brain trying to figure out how to get my characters more involved or thinking about their development and nothing really comes about. I want more interaction with my characters and by that I don’t mean sitting around having tea.  The problem is most story driven rps were set up by a small group and only include that group.  I don’t think they would deny me if I asked to join but I have difficulty figuring out how to just throw my char into an rp that has no business with their chars.

It could be that I’m tired of the EN environment.  Sometimes you just need to start over or start fresh you know?  So far no other place has peeked my interest.  There was one, but I started to see some hostility towards another chat while I was thinking of registering.  The last thing wanted was to enter a chat that acts like that.  I’m still watching them though as that issue was addressed.  Unfortunately it set a bad first impression in my mind.

I’d like to think I’ve discovered a lot of new things about friendship over the year.  There is still many more ways I can grow and a lot I probably still havnt figured out. 

One thing I noticed and have to come to terms with are who are really my friend and who are not.  It seems I’ve made a lot of one sided friendships over the years and whenever I lost those people and had to let them go I always felt very saddened by this.  It left me wondering how things turned like this and now I think I know why.  I was projecting my friendships onto them.  I would truly think I was close to those people and then came to realize I’m not. 

Oh most were really nice about it, but when I left it up to them I noticed there wasn’t a whole lot of push or pull, they were just distant.  So I realized I was never really that close, I just wanted to be or imagined I was close.  I’m still working on other friendships but I’ve let others go.  None of those I stopped talking to have really gotten In touch with me, but that’s ok!  I’m not mad at them at all, I’m much more relaxed about the whole thing.